Slamming of the Brakes

Slamming of the Brakes

Screeching tires... The slamming of the brakes.
Everyone can't help but laugh hysterically
As we weave in and out of life at a break neck speed
But the fun only lasts so long. Reality hits hard
We are no longer teenagers in this game of love

Time and circumstances demand that we be practical and thoughtful
Emotions only can take you so far in this wacky world
The momentum of new faces and new places fades fast
I have become a cynic and a doubter of heartfelt words
I don't even believe my own mouth at times. I lack trust.

I hate this. Indecisive and still alone. I want more out of life
I hate being so shallow and cold hearted I want to make people happy
But I have come to find out this life is mine to live not anyone else's.
I give away my time and attention too generously, spreading myself thin
Called a slut or a whore by those that get jealous and want even more

But I don't want to live your dream. I know you want it all --
Everyone around you to be happy and within eyesight and earshot.
I can't live your dreams – I am still making sense of my own.
I refuse to settle for something close. I want more from my life
Don't hold me back and I promise I won't do the same.

It will hurt at first but the pain hopefully will motivate us both.
Good bye for now but not for good. Who knows what the roller coaster
Has in store for all of us…but I am going to let go of the bar and feel the breeze
Rushing through my finger tips. Trusting that God has bigger plans for us.
Friends Forever. "More than" Once in this lifetime I have said these words --

I still love and care for all of you and I truthfully mean that.